Finding joy.

The Holiday season is upon us and I'm struggling this year. I feel like this should be a really happy time. Its Gracelyn's first Holiday season and Isaac is old enough this year that it should be really fun. But I'm struggling to find joy. I'm impatient and easy to get frustrated. I can't pinpoint why. I've been getting more sleep lately. The kids haven't been any more difficult than normal. We haven't had any drama from family simply because we haven't been in communication with them. I've been reading my bible more and praying more. We have a small group that meets up every other week. So I don't know. I want to be happy. I don't want to be stressed. But I'm just struggling.