Man oh man I forgot how bad the stress of moving was. Especially when its from one major city to another. Also add in a crawling baby who likes to stick everything in their mouth? Even better. I like to be in control and if I could take care of everything and not have to have help I think it would be better for me. I hate asking" have you done this yet?" to my husband or whoever and it not being done.

Oddly though I have no stress about unpacking. For now at least. There wont be a deadline like there is here. I think it will be nice to take my time and organize the way I want to.

Lord, just get me through this move!

New.

There is a lot of "newness" going on around here. New city, new house etc. I'm also trying a new cleanse this week to help refresh me. Out with the old. We have been purging our current house of all the junk and trash and are about to start doing some major packing. 

I'm starting to feel just a little bit sad bout leaving. I'm still 80% excited about moving though. Ive just been trying to coordinate seeing friends here one last time before we leave and that makes me feel a little sad. Im really really excited to make some new friends though. I've moved from one city to another twice already but third time will definitely be a charm in this case. I don't want to move again for awhile!

Moving.

Well, everyone knows now that Justin and I are moving to Austin. We didn't expect to have to do it so soon but our landlord informed us that he is selling the house we are currently renting and that we have 4-6 weeks to find a new home. That weekend we went to Austin and found the most perfect home for us. We are so excited! I haven't seen Justin this excited in so long. We haven't ever really had a home that we are really proud of that has felt permanent. We can actually put down roots and know that we wont be moving in a year or two. I'm definitely not looking forward to the actual moving part. We have a lot of stuff and moving with a baby is going to be challenging. I have been pinning sooooo much stuff on pinterest and I see lots of home projects in our future!

Incomplete?

Lately I've been feeling really unsettled. Limbo and incomplete are the words I feel have been on my mind lately. I'm a little unsure where God wants me. I feel like something is missing from my life. This mostly boils down to wanting to buy a house. I'm just so unsure about whether it is a good idea to buy a house down here when our lease is up. I guess I just don't know if I want to put down roots here. At this moment it doesn't feel right. But is that because I'm mad that its so far from my family? Is it because of my desires instead of wanting what God wants? I don't know. I've been praying that God will reveal to me what he wants for me and for my family. Justin has such a great job here and I do too now. The thought of picking up and moving is also terrifying. I've done it twice already and its difficult. Do I want to do that again? I think I'm mostly just sad that I'm so far from my parents Every time I go to Tyler to visit the homey feeling I get is almost indescribable. I want it so bad. I don't feel like that when I come to my actual house. I don't know if its possible to find that somewhere else other than Tyler and moving back to Tyler isn't an option. I might be chasing a feeling that I wont be able to find. Nothing will compare to Tyler because my family wont be there so I need to accept the fact that I have to make my home somewhere other than Tyler.

I want a change and I don't know what that means but I hope that I can be quiet enough to listen and hear what God speaks to me.