Being a Mom is hard.

Being a Mom is hard. Even if you have the easiest baby on the planet. And it can be lonely. You can play with your baby, run errands and even catch up with someone on the phone and you can still feel alone. So this is a letter to myself.

Dear Mom,

You're doing a good job. Even on the days when nothing seems good enough. And the days when you just want to lay on the couch and binge on nutella and Real Housewives. It's ok to want to go to Target by yourself and if you can you should. Take advantage of the days when you can be by yourself or even better, be with friends! These lonely days will pass. Sometimes you have to fake it till you make it and then one day you'll realize you aren't faking it anymore. The sadness will be gone and you'll enjoy the days more. Stop feeling guilty about being sad even when you look at your beautiful child. The sad moments will make you appreciate the happy ones more.

Love, Self




Being a Mother is not for the faint of heart.

Breastfeeding weaning.

Isaac is a little over 7 months now. My first goal with breastfeeding was to make it to 6 months. Since then I have been playing it by ear as far as how long I want to go. After he reached 6 months I said my next goal would be to make it to 9 months. Its a struggle to think that I will still be trudging along for 2 more months. But I also feel sad about stopping.

When I signed up for breastfeeding in the beginning I had no idea how hard it would be to stop. I'm finding that I'm more emotional about it than I ever imagined I would be. No one really talks about the weaning process. Babies are supposed to be breastfed/formula fed for the first year. The only reason I'm thinking of switching to formula is because I keep getting clogged ducts, milk blisters and honestly out of convenience.

I don't have any issues with formula and I think it is a great choice. I think maybe I'm just nervous about losing our bond. I also feel selfish. If I quit breastfeeding it is because it is my choice. I feel like I'm taking away something that is familiar to him and comforting. And what if he has tummy problems when it comes to choosing a formula?

I've read that when babies are weaned that it can make your hormones a little crazy. Similar to post-partum and can lead to sadness and depression. I already feel sad and guilty over it so if I wean will it make it worse?  If I wait for Isaac to wean on his own will I feel rejected? Ahhh too many questions and things going on in my mind. I know I can't be alone when it comes to feeling like this. Maybe my milk will dry up on its own and I wont have to make a choice. Or maybe I'll end up breastfeeding longer than a year :)

Being a mother is complicated!